Sunday, October 10, 2010

im back!

1st off i got a new blanket
oh i love blankets
i am a happy girl

i had amazing weekend
got to see so many people
go out do things i havent done in what feels like forever
i really am just enjoying life right now

funny story from this weekend
we were driving back from the desert on a mattress in the back of a truck when we get pulled over by the cops. the boys had guns so the cops had to take them and then wanted to to search the truck for drugs. haha he finally got out his drug sniffing dog while we all stood out the side of the beeline hwy for 45 minutes..but those are the kind of things you remember.

this had made me thing about things a little. we had a good talk while sitting in the back of the truck. there is so much that goes on in our lives...the good...the bad...and the ugly, but what are the things you will really remember? what are the things that you want to really make count. there is so much the we worry and stress about but in time will those things matter and make a difference? or will we remember chill nights in the back of the truck talking with good friends when you needed them most. if made me think that you just got to focus on those things that you know when looking back on them will bring a smile to your face.

this is the time you make those memories!!!


Friday, October 8, 2010


so i spent my morning in the wonderful COOLIDGE AZ
my friend had to go so i went along for the ride
its defiantly not on my list of vacation spots but it was a wonderful morning

dying my hair today
i NEED a little change
exciting for the weekend going to have some great times with my friends
im going out tonight and wear my sexy big girl boots haha cant wait

i had a comment made to me
"you have been more cheerful in the last couple of days then i have seen you be in a while"
this is a wonderful sign
also i dont think i really noticed that because these couple of days have been hard
but it shows that its all going to work out and im handling it pretty well
life goes on and i couldnt be more happy about it!

.....i dont miss him.....i miss who i thought he was....

Thursday, October 7, 2010


....went to class boring.....

wanted to drive by the temple on my way home... there was this old man driving down the middle of the street oh is little scooter he was on his way to drive around the temple grounds i couldnt help but smile when i saw him... and the temple of course

im trying to get back in for a little motivation im thinking about a half marathon. i dont know about that one yet but its a good goal right? but im lovin the sore abs today let you know you worked hard

ready for this weekend but not to work just for the fun parts

i have the most AMAZING friends who truly care about me. They have know just what i needed the last couple days and i have been so blessed!!!!

late night thoughts

so i was posting all of these things while i was gone and having crazy adventures but i got

home and stopped blogging. Lately i have felt the urge to start again so now is as good at time

as any. adjust to being home was to bad... its the adjust back in the social scene that feel weird.

i feel like as much as i had learned about myself im learning more now. Sometimes you get a

good perspective on yourself through the eyes of people who are close to you. Thing you need

to do and work on. Many times those things can to be hard to hear but when they are coming

from some one who you loves and trust you know they are for the better. I have learned that i

am a very strong person and can do things i never thought i would do... while in honduras i

wanted to come home so many days (like everyday) by the end of my stay i was saying to

myself "i dont understand why i am still here". Now being home and being in the real i have

realized what an amazing gift that is to me! This is a true blessing from my Heavenly Father.

Recently i saw myself in a situation where i didnt know how i could talk to a person or get

across what i felt i needed to. i was worried knowing what was to come, but when the time

came i said exactly what i needed and as i walked away though the outcome was far from what i

hoped for i felt such strength. In the days to follow i felt the same strength and much

as i was still not happy with the outcome i knew that it worked out the way that is best for me,

because if it wasnt i surely wouldnt feel the way i do now. its so strange how things work out

sometimes like you never thought or wanted them to.....there is one phrase in my life that was

told to me and many times it has been brought to my mind when thing get tough or i get

down...DONT WORRY ABOUT THE THINGS YOU CANT CHANGE..... but its so true it always

makes me stop and think "right, i cant change it maybe its best i dont, because it must mean

there something better up ahead"